Hi all, [really] long time, no see. But, I have some news.
February has been utterly depressing. A few weeks ago, I received notification that one of my top DC school picks, the one I felt confident that I may receive acceptance into, was a let down. No acceptance. A big, fat notice of rejection. Today, I received notification that my least favorite and lowest ranked school could not offer me PhD admittance. However, they extended me an offer to their M.A. program, which I will not be accepting.
At this point, you may be thinking that I am vindictive, that I am a woman scorned, and that I have an inflated sense of myself for not taking the M.A. offer. I am not. The GRE is just as important to PhD programs for those applying with an M.A. I studied over the summer, took the GRE twice, never improved my score, and I know that I cannot improve what I have. That was the best I could do. I am not a multi-subject, important, and timed test-taker. I do my work, I make good grades, but I cannot translate that into life-altering tests. I cannot. I refuse to waste $200 on another lackluster performance for four hours. I know my limitations forward and backward, and at some point, you must stop ignoring or even stop fighting them. I think there is power in knowing limitations, in knowing when enough is enough. Currently, there are three, really two, outstanding decisions remaining, and if I am offered admission into their M.A. programs, it might be denial as well.
With this low-rank offering of admission into the MA program, along with other M.A. programs, there is a question of whether I can translate an M.A. into a PhD program at another university. A low-ranked school looks like a joke on paper. What if I am stuck with an M.A. that I cannot do anything with? It is also important to note that not all credits, regardless of the school and M.A. program, transfer to these PhD programs. That is the real tragedy.
On top of this, I also anticipate not receiving acceptance into another school, which I predicted because it is a high-ranked, prestigious program. I will be certain of this tomorrow.
Meanwhile, I guess, at this point, I am just confused. I feel misled.